From the Picture Bible from the Monastery of St Bertin, France. Created ca 1200. National Library of the Netherlands.



Oct 5- Today my life began. My parents do not know it yet, I am as small as a seed of an apple, but it is I already. And I am to be a girl. I shall have blond hair and blue eyes. I will be left handed like my great grand-dad Joe. I will eat my food separaretly, just one thing at a time, like my aunt Lucy. Just about everything is settled even the fact that I shall love flowers and puppies.

Oct 19- Some say that I am not a real person yet; that only my mother exists. But I am a real person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I am.

Oct 23- My mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and later talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA.

Oct 25- My heart began to beat today all by itself. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire. It will stop, and then I shall die.But closing my eyes in this world I will open it into a new one. And whether that place be HEVAVEN or HELL will depend upon how well I learned my leassons here on earth. Can't hardly wait to get started. "A, B, C, D, ..."

Nov 2- I am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I have to wait a long time yet before those little legs will raise me to my mama's arms, before these little arms will be able to gather flowers and embrace my earthly father.

Nov 12- Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I'll be able to stroke my mothers hair with them. And play the piano ... and paint beautiful flowers ... but I am getting ahead of myself.

Nov 20- It wasn't until today that the doctor told mom that I am living here under her heart. Oh. how happy she must be! You ARE happy, mama? And gosh, one day, a very long time from today. I will know those very same feelings and emotions! Gosh.

Nov 25- My mom and dad are probably thinking about a name for me. But they don't even know that I am a little girl. I want to be called Cathy. I am getting so big already!

Dec 10- My hair is growing, it is smooth and bright and shiny, I wonder what kind of hair mommy has?

Dec 13- I am just about able to see. It is dark around me. When mom brings me into the world it will be full of sunshine and flowers. But what I want more than anything is to see my mommy. What do you look like, mommy?

Dec 24- I wonder if mommy hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the world a little sick. Buy my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evenly: tup-tup, tup-tup. You are going to have a healthy little daughter mommy! Maybe I will be the first woman to run a four minute mile!

Dec 25- Merry Christmas! Happy Birthday Jesus! And next year will be my very first Christmas in the real world!

Dec 28- Today my mommy elected to kill me! This is the saddest day of my all too short life. Why didn't my mommy love me?

Dec 29- Hullo, Jesus. Do you still love ALL the little children in the world? Even me? What is that? I am not old enough to understand your plan of SALVATION, so I am not SAVED, but I am eternally SAFE with you and your father? Thank you, Jesus.


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